Today I was not very anxious. I did feel like fainting when I woke up, though. My head felt heavy and cold, my hands felt cold. Upon standing, I swayed and saw black. So after breakfast (oatmeal) and not feeling better, I had some chicken, which helped very quickly. It had been a couple days since I'd had meat. I'm super reliant on it. I'm ( Read more... )

Today has been a pretty good day. I received a very sweet message from a friend, received my final two bras in the mail.( Bra TMI Again )

Did errands today. Probably won't get around to painting, but I will at least find a reference picture for the rabbit for the baby shower painting. Maybe I will paint the outline of the rabbit. For errands we went to ALDI (a grocery store) for bottled water, then Caribou Coffee where I bought Michael and myself a frappuccino (yay! I finally ( Read more... )

Well I have decided what I am going to paint, partly thanks to my friend Maria. I'm going to paint bicyclists on a nature path. I did a pastel drawings of bicyclists in high school and won a cash prize for it. It will be a challenge with acrylic paints, but hopefully I can pull it off:-)

I started reading a fascinating book called Cloaked by ( Read more... )

My brother bought me a very expensive sandwich today! I requested he and my mother buy me one after my brother got off work because the deli is near there. I thought it would maybe cost $4, but it cost $8! It was just a chicken sandwich with pesto, tomatoes, and bean sprouts (and cheese, which I removed). It was really good... I was so hungry ( Read more... )

I have a stomachache right now:( I'm too full. I feel bad that I had to take Klonopin again this evening for anxiety. Neurontin works great on my morning anxiety and lasts me a long time. I often forget to take my second dose for awhile because I still feel fine. However, my second dose neither gets rid of already existing anxiety nor prevents ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a little irritable right now, but I don't know why... I will probably take my night medications soon and try to meditate. I tried calling Amber, but she didn't answer her cellphone. I miss her... Michael and Dan went out to stores for stuff for Michael's Gundam models. They will probably get back late, as usual. I might go out ( Read more... )

I'm mad at myself for not getting done what I want to do. I spend too much time looking at random things online. I still haven't exercised because of my stomach. I'm hoping late this afternoon my nausea will be gone so I can exercise. I went to bed pretty early last night. I just felt really tired. Today I'm going to do tarot and meditate, ( Read more... )

Today is my first day without Ritalin LA and my appetite is insanely huge.:( I have more healthy foods to eat now, though. Michael went to the grocery store without me since it's huge sensory overload for me (he's mostly fine in a crowd as long as nobody is chewing gum or typing). I'm having the desire to eat when I'm not even hungry. I just ( Read more... )

Today has gone pretty well, though Michael is sick, which lowers his tolerance of his sensory issues. For instance, in church today Michael had to leave towards the end, not because of gum chewing (like usual), but because of sniffling. Though he himself was sniffling, incidentally. We came home right after church ( Read more... )